Hurt Tabs

I hurt myself today to see if I still feel
I focus on my pain, the only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole, the old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away but I remember everything

What have I become? My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away in the end
You could have it all, my empire of dirt
I will let you down, I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time, the feelings disappear
You are someone else, I am still right here

What have I become? My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away in the end
And you could have it all, my empire of dirt
I will let you down, I will make you hurt

If I could start again a million miles away
I would keep myself, I would find a way